The film is nearing its completion! Phew! This has been a long, hard road. Yet it has been rewarding. It all started with a road trip, which, like other journeys, had many detours and lots of surprises. A journey, like a vision quest and the tribal ritual of going off into the desert alone, is a perfect metaphor for inner transformation. My experience, like those before me, showed me big darkness before the dawn. The emptiness gave birth to something. The creative process, like the healing process, is usually something that must be done alone. At times during the editing of this film I felt completely alone. I was ready to give up. I got tired of putting myself through the pain of looking at the past in order to get back into the present and to create a vision for the future. And then at the very darkest hour, which happened a few weeks ago, I took a little break. By stepping back, I began to see light at the end of the tunnel.
For the last few weeks I’ve been working really hard with the editor, who lives 8 hours away in time and 10,000 miles away in distance. I think we are nearly there. And since the success of my Kickstarter campaign I have had the support of all of the new friends I met during that incredible 30 days. I may not speak to them, but knowing that they contributed to the successful completion of the film makes me feel as if I have been reunited with my tribe. I am coming out of the desert into the warm arms of my people, those who felt this story resonated with them so much that they became a part of the film’s team. I am so grateful.
The journey has been long. But I think I now have a lot more to share than I once thought I had. This is a personal film, but one I hope has some universal messages of hope. I did it for me. I needed to see hope in action. I now know my prescription for getting through hard times is clear; it is the path of action. It may not work for everyone, but it has worked well for me. I get up in the morning and engage in something, anything… sometimes something small and sometimes something bigger (read a blog post I wrote about this on my other blog). Today as I come out of the desert I have committed to the ritual of sharing my experiences with others. I’m now ready to begin sharing my work with others and have begun the process of submitting the film to festivals. I’ll let you know how that goes, but for now it is the action that counts.
I was once part of family unit of two – me and my son. Now that I am a family of one, I have needed to enlarge my family to include you. I started this journey alone, but that is no longer the case. I’m now running with the crowd, a crowd of wonderful, generous people like you. Thanks for sharing this journey with me.